If only I knew his intentions When my father wound up missing When I was born he was too careless To care at all I watched my Mama's heart fall To the ground and the sound Of your voice in my head Isn't this lovely Do you even love me at all I'm reading letters that you scribbled On a prison wall He's begging forgiveness But should I forgive him Should I have sympathy now For a man that was never around When I needed you most you played the ghost In this story of strangers When I was only three you left me And I grew without you To hold my hand along the way The things that you missed All the girls that I kissed Those talks that we never got to have And now behind bars you wear the scars Of decisions that you've made Nobody's perfect But was it not worth it To show your face I've tried to become a man But I don't quite understand And it's all your fault The times life got the best of me But you weren't there to rescue me And encourage a change And all this shows is that this bag of clothes Is closer to me than you are I've been pacing through this place Asking God what should I do It's a shame you'll never hear me say "I want to grow up to be just like you"