I look at my phone every ten seconds
Been left to my own devices for too long
I can't control the thoughts inside my head
I wish I were dead
Or is that too honest?
I'll try to tone it down a little bit
Cause I know that you can't handle it
I thought telling the truth would bring me closer to you
But I was wrong
I lie on my kitchen floor, scrolling through pictures
Imagine all of the ways it could have played out
I wish I could forget the words you said
This feeling of dread
The shadows of promise
I'll try to choke it down a little more
'Cause I know my crumbling heart's become a chore
Well I thought I you saw all of me, but in reality
You only saw what you wanted
So I'll try to push it down a little more
Just enough to get my feet out the door
I'll smile at strangers on the street, and all the people I meet
Will never know, never know
You're letting me go
So I'll try to tone it down a little bit
Cause I know that I can't handle it
Well I thought telling the truth would bring me closer to you
But I was wrong
I was wrong
I was wrong