When I think now about who I wish I was in a year
It breaks my heart that I still consider not even being here
So what do I do with all these demons plaguing me?
When I've done nothing to help myself or anyone else what can I say?
Let me live my own life without being held down
By the darkness I see the pain is killing me
I'm still not who I want to be
A wonderful lie
A beautiful dream
I won't even try
The blame lies on me
No longer pretending that I'm perfect
My conscious thoughts tell me otherwise
There's meaning hidden under the surface
I just want to be better
(Oh Oh)
Let me live my own life without being held down
By the darkness I see the pain is killing me
I'm still not who I want to be
A wonderful lie
A beautiful dream
I won't even try
The blame lies on me