Waiting for the day I don't wake up Running from a past that won't let go Living in a dream I'm afraid won't end Please just carry on It tears apart my heart to see Everything I used to be It tears apart my heart to see Everything that I've become You'll always crawl back to me You are the death of all I loved I'm always there when you fall You're the one that dragged me down I am the madness that dwells I am your hell The scars upon your skin I am the hate within The black behind your eyes I live in your lies The loss in all you gain I'm never-ending pain You will never be good enough No one's ever really liked you You will always be alone You're a disappointment Can't you do anything right You're worthless No one could ever love you No one could ever love you You will die alone Ahhhhhhh Nothing left for me to feel Betrayed by all I thought was real Could I ever be good enough for me Would I ever be able to forgive myself All I've ever gotten was a dependency of your pain I see a vivid, colorful world In shades of fucking gray So if I die tonight At last I'll be okay All I ever wanted Was to live this life without you Although I long to change it all I'm afraid this is my curtain call I am the madness that dwells I am your hell The scars upon your skin I am the hate within The black behind your eyes I live in your lies The loss in all you gain I'm never-ending pain Come with me I'll show you the only world you'll ever know You are mine forever We are meant to be together I don't know what this night will hold I don't know if my story will ever be told But I will fight this You won't make that choice for me I don't know what this night will hold I don't know if my story will ever be told But I will fight this You won't make that choice for me I don't know what this night will hold I don't know if my story will ever be told But I will fight this You won't make that choice for me