Anxious habits, I'll come back home soon
Maybe you're not built for reaction, and there's nothing I can do
I know you're not part of the problem, you're just helping out
I still feel pain inside a distant mind, there's no easy way out
You'll never find me here again, I've given up on this
Taking in my loneliness (but I will still break again)
My mind is filled with emptiness, a pleasant side effect
I'll never feel the same again (but I will still play pretend)
Fasten in, let's contemplate, where is my solar state?
I'm never one to concentrate (on the things that I have)
Let me break and sell myself, I'm broken on your shelf
I want to just be someone else (but we still come out the same)
I wanna breathe in and be okay
The glamour you held with your pain
I'll just throw out everything
I wanna love myself again, but the point is small and I can't wait
Contain all your thoughts in a jar by the door
I wanna tell you that I'm innocent
But you'll come back with running metaphors
Every now and then I try to improve what is mine
But calling on another lie (to see if you care this time)
Giving up on all my thoughts, I'll leave myself to rot
I wanna leave her, but I'm not (questioning what is mine)
Breaking down these walls again, between myself and them
I'm always locked into this trend (of knowing where I should end)
Holding on, I'm breathing fast, I wish this wouldn't last
I want to leave this in the past (but I will still break again)
I wanna breathe in and be okay
The glamour you held with your pain
I'll just throw out everything
I wanna love myself again, but the point is small and I can't wait
Contain all your thoughts in a jar by the door
I wanna tell you that I'm innocent
But you'll come back with running metaphors
I wanna see my head underwater (head underwater)
Maybe I'll breathe a little better down there ('cause I can't breathe air)
All this life is heaven-sent
It's nothing that is filled with dread
But I'm giving these habits a noose