I just realized that I
Got the upper hand in this
I never planned for this
I thought you was my left hand
'Til you left it all on me to handle it
You abandoned me and you just handed it
To me all dismantled and it's damaging
Broken pieces of my heart turned to coal
Now the pressure's on
I know my heart's made of diamonds
Yup that's set in stone
Why are you settling for last
You know I'm number one
I ain't perfect best believe me
You know nothing real is worth it
If it's easy
Guess I'm beside myself
But I know you think of me
When you are by yourself
And I know you still want me to
Prove to you I'm worth it
You want the best of me
You feel like you deserve it
(But guess what)
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
For myself, that's not enough
I know what I want
I know what I'm looking for
Baby girl don't front
I know what you're pushing for
You know it's me, it's me
Girl you know it's me
And that's why it is me
Where you'd rather be, Yea
Or maybe I am playing myself
You've chosen somebody else
Losing me
Call me cuz you know
But you're not choosing me
Tell me that you need me
How can I believe?
When you let this
Dumb ass nigga come between
All the things we built
Oh girl that's everything
And I know you see
He callin' you, and you ignore him
Then you're calling me
If I text while you're with him
Then you're ignoring me
This confusion got pressed
So maybe I should leave
I should leave, yea
Guess I'm beside myself
But I know you think of me
When you are by yourself
I know you still want me to
Prove to you I'm worth it
You want the best of me
You feel like you deserve it
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
I been on the up and up
For myself, that's not enough
I know what I want
I know what I'm looking for
Baby girl don't front
I know what you're pushing for
You know it's me, it's me
Girl you know it's me
And that's why it is me
Where you'd rather be, Yea
Or maybe I am playing myself
You've chosen somebody else
Don't do this to me
Patiently waiting for the girl
To recolor my heart red
Sitting here strong
I can feel my heart fading
Don't wanna be alone
And I'm kinda scared
When I finally say
Just wanna be happy
Message to my Exes
And the girls who could've had me
Regret it if you lost me
You will never find another like me