I almost got shot the other day
Wanna leave but I'm feelin that there is no other way
Gotta grow can't abandon and keep leaving stuff the same
But the "H" is suffocating my motivation and faith
Ironic cause the testing 'sposed to bring the perseverance
But it's showing me the lowest me residing where my fear is
The clearest, revealing all the ills and my spirit
Feeling weak worst part is that most of it's self inflicted
Can't breath barely gasping
Can't reach air I'm grasping
Nasty gymnastics pass through my mental
Flipping out white flag half mast in surrender
Mad baggage and fragile as glass in the window
One stone cast and I'm shattered.this ain't me
Or maybe it is sometimes I can't speak
A slow undoing causing faint speech
Thoughts in a bundle of confusion
Intruding on my joy paranoia is included
Everyones out to get me got me
I'm feeling like I'm losing
Nothing coming clear and I don't know what I'm doing
Truth be told, so I'm waiting
Or maybe this the prison that God has chosen to shape me
Either way it's gettin harder to take
But I guess it's the story the authors choosing to make
I gotta get wit it
Thought something would come clear like sights into my dreams
Steps into my dreams
Steps into my dreams
4:30 on my clock and still nothing is seen I
Just can't fall asleep, mind's afraid of mine in deep
All alone in this place and I prefer to wander
How would it feel above this heavy sheet I'm under
I've been told I should clean my act up I'm too vulgar
Once you're undone you'll say you blame it on another
Thought something would come clear like sights into my dreams
Steps into my dreams
Steps into my dreams
4:30 on my clock and still nothing is seen I
Just can't fall asleep, mind's afraid of mine in deep
All alone in this place and I prefer to wander
How would it feel above this heavy sheet I'm under
I've been told I should clean my act up I'm too vulgar
Once you're undone you'll say you blame it on another
Can't breath barely gasping
Can't reach air I'm grasping
Can't sleep through the madness
This can't be all I'm after