My dad passed away when I was just teenager in high school
But, my mind wasn't ready--Lying to myself like I'm cool
I didn't miss class on his last day of livin'
The only good thing was that my other problems seemed so distant
Accept for my loneliness at the time, that I kept hidden
I mean it took me this long just to express this in my lyrics
So, I hope that could hear it, but I won't overstay your visit
He was the first person I'd show my music to before you listened
So in the following years of pain, although this may sound foolish
I'd wake up in tears, from dreams where he would listen to my music
He was smart, he would make mistakes, and yes he was imperfect
In the months before he slept, I was just getting to know this person
Just telling me his stories, about how he was raised
As a boy in the hood--from local gangs he escaped
A secret route he took home, on those dangerous days
And how people were buggin' about how tall he was, but hey
I really wish that he could hear what my music became
I can't wait for him to meet my wife in paradise someday
I can't wait for him to meet my wife in paradise someday
I say that twice so I can picture it in my mind today
No, I don't make music for you, I create to express
The things I love, I hate, my passion, who I am, and what I stress
I don't write corny raps, or gospel, or whatever
Just a level 90 MC with skills that are clever
But I escape by wandering from this world to the next
A hero in every story-with the video games I trek
I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke weed at all
But, I plug in my controller to escape all my flaws
At Super Sonic speed, I run across oceans and walls
I'm a Monster Hunter-In space, I battle Dark Falz
Keyblade Master, reliving Disney movies that I saw
When I was small-The Escapist is what I'm called
I'm picking apart my mind because I be livin within a time
I gotta be so defined, by the rhymes I write every line so tight
And I might just fly like Michael's type when I write
Precise I light the night like end of a tunnel I better be humble, because
Fame is close, my days get cold, I pray for hope
And I know they sleep but I lay that flow with the later codes
I get when the sun isn't here anymore
Words so deep I heal the poor they feel it more but still in war
And so I wait to see the vacancy and make a leap of faith
I give 'em what they need today
It's common that I lead the way and alleviate the pain we face
I need to make a better way and I seem to paint for better days
And so I let it spray when I can then summon the Rain
The days I elevate, it's like my pain just suddenly fades
No runnin' away from the weight that's on my soul
Will not wait to become old
Just to learn from what I've done
There's a purpose I've begun, and so I promise to make it real
They talkin' about the rain and how it's came and gone away
I know that life is short and so I pray for longer days
I'm movin' with the moon and so I duplicate the waves
I choose to take a page for releasing all my thoughts
I give you all my secrets that be deep within my heart
It's like
But I escape by wandering from this world to the next
A hero in every story-with the video games I trek
I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke weed at all
But, I plug in my controller to escape all my flaws
At Super Sonic speed, I run across oceans and walls
I'm a Monster Hunter-In space, I battle Dark Falz
Keyblade Master, reliving Disney movies that I saw
When I was small-The Escapist is what I'm called
Growing up as a kid they say that there will be rainy days
That the sun is still shining even if it isn't touching your face
But I couldn't help but feel that it was all talk and some no show
When just two years back I was in the darkness fighting solo
But who don't, feel a bit sad and depressed
When they attempt to recollect all the times they have spent
And honestly my life from the first person wasn't too bad
But I guess it all started because I've never known my real dad
Twenty-three years walking this crust above the rotting pizza
A visa on my life the master cards that time deducts
A reason, a just cause to blast the mic loudly
Tow is it that "that man" could not speak to his family
Astounding, on top of that I had problems with my peers
Giving into temptations of the flesh and shedding years
Off of my life with that binge drinking
Thoughts that my soul was not truly thinking, I was sinking
Into depression, heading down a dark lonely path
In the back of my mind memories I threw into a cache
Sitting in my room, playing music just to stay afloat
My life was a disaster and no sign of hope's coast
And then the women--the women--something that didn't
Want to keep me living--in an instant, and I was Twisted
Then finally someone reached out and noticed my sorrow
So I was blessed to breathe the breath into this outro
But I escape by wandering from this world to the next
A hero in every story-with the video games I trek
I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke weed at all
But, I plug in my controller to escape all my flaws
At Super Sonic speed, I run across oceans and walls
I'm a Monster Hunter-In space, I battle Dark Falz
Keyblade Master, reliving Disney movies that I saw
When I was small-The Escapist is what I'm called