Been doing this for too long
To be this far away from being close to proving you wrong
You right... I ain't shit... never have been, never will be
But my philosophy is fill up pages til it kills me
Conscience filthy, feeling like I can't continue
Booked a show, only five people at the venue
And that includes the bartender and a couple friends
A couple rappers up after... I don't fuck with them
I swear to God this shit has got to end
I got this life that needs to live outside the box I've locked it in
Not content until I've cut every single string
That's been tied to my inner being, controlling everything
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in, putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another day passes, I look back like what happened?
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in, putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another year passes, I look back like what happened?
I'm surrounded by simplicity... Complexity infesting me
Especially when what I keep requesting keeps rejecting me
Let it be... Be Yourself... They don't need you, you don't need them
That's one less crowd of people forcing you to pretend
That you are even remotely what they promote they are
Aren't you just the opposite of anything they've heard so far?
It's far fetched, but I'm tossing it up to fate
That if I put my life into it, then somebody might relate
Take my every word to heart and pick apart all the mistakes
That I've made and keep on making in my search to find a space
Where I don't feel out of place, for the first time in my life
Been wrong for so long, it's like I'm bound to get it right... right?
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in, putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another day passes, I look back like what happened?
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in, putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another year passes, I look back like what happened?
I got this voice inside my head that keeps on telling me I'm dead
If I do not take that chance and lift my toes up off that ledge
Learn to fly or say goodbye, either way you felt a rush
And that's more than most can say, pray to faith to help you trust
That eventually it works itself out... How convenient
You just made a mess in hopes that someone else would clean it
And when that didn't happen, you got pissed and threw a fit
Now it's overflowing landfills everywhere you life
Ain't that something... Sick of awaiting the second coming
Staying calm, holding on to a cause that has led to nothing
Lounging on a life raft, looking for a lighthouse
All I see is blue beneath the white clouds, right now
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another day passes, I look back like what happened?
That's how it feels, I am not in control
I got this body that I'm in, putting locks on my soul
I really thought that I could see the code and actually crack it
But as another year passes, I look back like what happened?