How's one man plotting on the whole planet
Don't talk about it, just go goddammit
No God's dammit... Only flesh
I got a million mistakes that I don't regret
It's like... Wake up, don't sleep, don't sleep
Pass out, crash on a stack of loose leaves
Can't function if I can't create every day
Pull the curtains up and I let it play
One time for the sunshine
Put the peace sign up for the moonlight
And no matter which one is above me
I'm adjusting it til the view's bright
OK, so I use light... and I let that light be the guide to the greatness
Where the blood spills filling up pages
And the birds break out of them cages... fly
Clipped wings, no way
Make rules for the masses to follow and obey
Like master, give me that masters in a specific field that won't pay
And I can't pay bills, but I've paid my dues and that's not doing much for the fam
So I spend my nights with cold sweats on my neck, trying to figure out how to expand
Like... Put the seed inside the earth
Add some water to it daily, watch it break out from the dirt
Got that moon, I got that sun
Come together, work as one
Create the bang that explains how a story just begun...
It all starts with a thought, followed by action
Look around, see it all casually passin'
Trying to pierce the sky that I'm stuck beneath, so I can face the faith I can't fathom
Gotta fill the void getting spacious
Staring at the nothing like, how did I make this?
In a maze where they're making you twist and turn so much, you become the complacent
Now you're caged in, you ain't got no key
Doors locked shut and the walls don't breathe
Want that exit but just can't leave
Realization, we are not free
Now freeze... Can't feel what you cannot touch
Numb to the core, so I can't feel much
Ain't no truth, So cannot trust
I don't really like where I'm at, so I keep looking back at every decision I've made
Every single time that I think that I might get a start, there's a bar that keeps getting raised
So I keep reaching... Stretching myself so thin
Thinking that one day, this all might end
Day by day, the mundane just blends
So I spend free time painting with a pen
Pensive... Daydreaming
Lost in the pointless, trying to find meaning
Outside silent, inside screaming
So I just walk to no light beaming...
As I drown in mediocrity, I'm looking for a life jacket
Searching for the what it takes and asking if I might have it
Never had a chance to change my disposition
And even if I did, I'm just a kid that didn't listen
Always feeling different, put distance in my friendships
Now I'm this adult that feels insane in every instance
Waking up and wanting more, fall asleep not getting it
Always asking what it's for, I'll find out when it finishes
If it ever finishes... I'm dying in it's endlessness
Energy on empty, realizing what relentless is
Is it just too much to muster up the courage for?
Dimming lights got me all forgetting what I'm working towards
Still flickering, but it's so far away
Will I ever truly see it? As of now, it's hard to say
With a heart that's barely beating and a brain that's overcooked
And a conscience second guessing every step I ever took