Different man Different person making up the plan Who am I Don't feel I'm in control of my own life What is this I only fall further in the abyss Of endlessness So I'm penning this As a final goodbye all my friends as I don't know if I'll be back Write and stamp another track Heard yall asking where he at Never left so that's my bad Needed time to hear myself Never wanted any help Stargirl got me on the ropes Both of em be taking notes Never ever thought I'd do this Sign my soul away and watch it go to ruins Life like a sick joke I don't know how to cope Funny how I need your help All you do is disappear But when you gon need my help Upset that I ain't right here Grab the bourbon off the shelf Down the bottle make it clear Swear to God can't stand myself Drown my liver in the beer Try my best in every way Guess it just ain't good enough Every night turns to new days You gon always call my bluff Take the gun outa the safe Grip it turn the safety off I can't cope another day Thinking about logging off I don't know if I could do it though I don't wanna die I just don't know where to go Oh I said to just be here now But I couldn't escape the drought Can't take advice that comes out of my mouth I know just how I feel But to others I'm too emotional cause they can't understand That I understand myself that I know just who I am I just can't overcome my shortcomings and that's something I can't stand Never ever thought I'd do this Sign my soul away and watch it go to ruins Life like a sick joke I don't know how to cope Funny how I need your help All you do is disappear But when you gonna need my help Upset that I ain't right here Grab the bourbon off the shelf Down the bottle make it clear Swear to God can't stand myself Drown my liver in the beer Try my best in every way Guess it just ain't good enough Every night turns to new days You gonna always call my bluff Take the gun outa the safe Grip it turn the safety off I can't cope another day Thinking about logging off