In my feelings at five AM
Like what's that doing for me
Saying that you care
But you ain't here supporting
When that light turns green
You be turning on the gaslight
Felt that pain in my back
I knew this shit ain't feel right
Starting to notice
Certain moves
That people making
It remind me of my past life
Whipping through the city
In this rental it kind of feel nice
Materialistic is how I'm feeling
It got me feeling cool
But this smile aint authentic
I get vulnerable
Spilling my emotions
On this note pad
Reading through these thoughts
Inside my head
Got me feeling sad
I've been going through it mentally
I feel my spirit breaking
Feel the devil reaching
For my shit
I feel my heart changing
Shit been getting colder
Shit been frozen since birth
Been scared to warm up and get closer
Im scared to get hurt
Im coming back repeatedly
Hate being codependent
Wanna do this by myself
Making all the wrong decisions
Praying out to God
I've been looking for repentance
This pain is my prison
It's a life long sentence
In my feelings at five AM
Like what's that doing for me
Saying that you care
But you ain't here supporting
When that light turns green
You be turning on the gaslight
Felt that pain in my back
I knew this shit ain't feel right
If you call me
I'm a pick up phone
But what if I pressed decline
Wouldn't you feel alone?
I aint saying that I will
I'm just wanting to know
If you would understand my pain
If I end up dead and gone