Waking up everyday, I don't even know my name
The Novocain for numbing pain is something that I long for
Till I overdose am I wrong for speaking to the Holy Ghost?
From highest floors of on top of worlds I'm dying when I jump
Plunge down hear a thump come round
Thinking why the fuck am I even so dumbfounded?
Knew sense '99 I wasn't ready for this life shit
Who the the fuck would call this nice bitch
Either dead or riding with the fucking knife slits
I'm not even happy in the slightest
Lately I have been feeling like the tightest
Stress is got me wishing I would die quick
Burning up inside and showing silence
While my fucking eyes lids
Float into the back of my skull
No time for a pause or I'll die from withdraws
New laws, show flaws I was dealing before
Pass out on the floor and I've been there before
Meta morphing to the boy who's been ignoring the voices
I run away from fucking life because I ran out of choices
I'm not alive so ostracize, and suicide so pointless
I want to go back to the times when I wasn't hopeless
I ostracize myself from people so I become soulless
And taking over the land 'cause I'm Ivar the Boneless
Fuck this life 'cause I don't feel anything now
Vampiric need fuck a tendency to be the one who bleeds
Never show emotion but I'm kind of weak
Cause my brain has a leak
Last week we where cool but now you start to tweak
You can't tell me when I'm supposed to speak
Hit my peak with this freak
Hit a streak of not talking to her 'cause I'll leave
What the fuck do you mean that I'm mean?
I'm not mean I just mean what I say
Get the fuck out my face cause I'm starting to rage