I hate me, but it's hard to change
Always digging my own grave
I hate me, only cause you pain
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I hate me, but I'm tryna change
Doesn't have to be this way
I hate me, sorry for the wait
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Please don't misunderstand, I just need space
Yeah, I might seem cold, but I'm afraid
Scared to be myself, hide my true face
Burning all my bridges when they're close to me
Present but I'm not, thoughts are getting dark
Shower me with love, yet I can't show you a smile
Ten years, I ain't been myself
Therapy, think I need some help
I hate me, but it's hard to change
Always digging my own grave
I hate me, only cause you pain
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I hate me, but I'm tryna change
Doesn't have to be this way
I hate me, sorry for the wait
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Friday night, stay at home
Writing songs on my own
Thinking 'bout the point of life
Maybe I should get a life
Late night, show up at the party, it's a packed house
Big crowd, so loud, everybody shouting out
"Hey, how are you?"
"Yeah, I'm good"
No, I'm not
Ruin the vibe? Nah, leave it alone
Dead inside, but they don't know
Tell me 'bout your funny news
I don't even laugh with you
Swear it's not intentional
Emotionally unavailable
I hate me, but it's hard to change
Always digging my own grave
I hate me, only cause you pain
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I hate me, but I'm tryna change
Doesn't have to be this way
I hate me, sorry for the wait
I'm sorry, I'm sorry