Mama, I'm so sorry if this breaks your heart But genetically this child was cursed from the start A poster child for the chemically imbalanced I'd try to explain but my words are all silenced Mama, I'm so sorry if this breaks your heart My father takes blame, we share this disease They say the apple doesn't ever fall far from the tree When the progress I've made is packaged with set backs Like a recovering junkie, I fuck up and relapse Father, I'm so sorry if this breaks your heart I just need a place to rest my head I never felt safe outside my bed And I swear this is my last try Yeah, I know I swore this last time It's like Jesus Christ, I'm back from the dead Crucified over and over again And I swear this is my last try Yeah, I know I swore this last time See, your only son died ten years ago I quietly bowed out and let no one else know About the internal affairs that nobody noticed I kept to myself like a closed casket service Mama, I'm so sorry if this breaks your heart