I use to dream bout the day I could buy a benz Now I could buy 10 Look at life lifing Look at faith faithing I seen fireflies It was breathtaking These are the makings of a man The givings and takings of a man The fixin and the breakings of a man The stillness and the shakings of a man All of my lessons come in the woman form Out of my lust there was a woman born Out of my lust there was a woman hurt Numbers couldn't quantify a woman's worth Numbers couldn't quantify a woman's love Them hoes don't feel like ya woman's hug Spent my life dodgin accountability Probably aiding her infertility I had some problems with infidelity I hid the shame with my ability Damn near died the shit was killing me Thought I was sick that shit was healing me God know I suffer from all my gluttony Aye, but he still fuck with me He know I'ma grow to be a better man It's easy not to fall when you never stand Kinda easy to fail when you never plan Probably can't cuz you tell yourself you never can I'm so invested in what's around me Playing in this water like it won't drown me Aye, finally went to therapy So I can feel worthy if you ever choose to marry me If I couldn't walk, on yo back you would carry me As I complain bout how life aint really fair to me Look at the account I'm in Nebraska living merrily Probably be the greatest when they bury me I did the crime I paid my price You saved my life I couldn't change I paid the price Can't save me twice I'm just a man Don't judge my plight This shits my life I did the crime I paid my price You saved my life