(These convictions and the senseless stubbornness that falsely reinforces them
They have this awful tendency to draw lines between us and those we love
Just the other day, I attended my father's funeral
My father and I, we never really agreed on too much
He went one way and I went the other
It seemed like every conversation ended with another door slammed
I hadn't talked to him in years, but I wish he could see me now
I wish he could be standing among you listening to me talk about what kind of man he was
How he stood up for what he believed in, and so here I am
Following in his footsteps
Making a difference the only way I know how)
I never bothered to reflect
Whether I was living or alive
To look back from whence I came
I never stopped to question why
So why now have I begun
To realize my own mistakes
All those regrets and fears that brought me here
These golden pearly gates
I've passed the pain, now Death awaits
And I'm still holding on
I never planned on letting go
Because I thought that I was strong
This is not the end
I never made my amends
If I'm destined for this
Then where can I begin again
Tell me
Tell me
Why now have I begun
To realize my own mistakes
All those regrets and fears that brought me here
These golden pearly gates
This is not the end
I never made my amends
If I'm destined for this
Then where can I begin again
Will the seraphim
Sing for me
Will the seraphim sing
How many times did I
Take a leap of faith
Savor my grace
And live for the moment each day
Still here I am
Dying again
Feeling so uncertain
I'll admit when
I'll submit when
I'll commit to it
When this all ends
I am not immortal, I'm afraid
(We all like to say that we stand at the edge)
I am not immortal, I am weak
(Side by side, yet not hand in hand)
It's easier to look forward when you're scared of the past
I could say you're not alone, but of course you never asked
When weight takes its hold on us the first to lose is who jumps
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