I've become a shell that's hiding, hiding from his former self Appearing as if I'm content but my thoughts are slowly guiding, guiding me to my downfall Before I knew it, I lost all sense of self control Another sleepless night with my face in my hands struggling to keep up with the fight (I want this to end) Suffering two defeats in a mental war What a cold world we live in, yet I can't take the heat Spirits sinking lower and lower Losing progress and composure Inner peace is slipping away from me Severed from life's tranquility Between myself and my identity, polarity separates it from I Failing to get a grip on reality At this point, I don't know who I am anymore Where do I turn for a remedy when the misery is self inflicted I need aid but I don't wanna burden Oh god, I feel so conflicted That other part of me is vacant, vacant Lost in the ever black Without my sense of humanity; how can I truly face these, face these demons on my own as they eat away at my sanity Go As I descend, my body hits the floor Fragile and weak, I fall apart Tossing, turning, breaking down and weeping Damned now but was damned from the very start The path leads backwards from here Static and shadows appear Wandering far and astray Into despair, I decay Between myself and my identity, polarity separates it from I Failing to get a grip on reality At this point, I don't know who I am anymore Where do I turn for a remedy when the misery is self inflicted I need aid but don't wanna burden Oh god, I feel so conflicted Since when did seasons last for decades at a time Since when did seasons last for decades at a time The last place I thought the threat would live is inside my head Confined by anxiety Someone please come set me free before I rake my eyes out