I feel that hole inside my chest. My chest- the feeling of empty
But for you, I always try my best. My best to truly be happy
And I've realized I was always wrong
And I need you here to tell
But since you're so far gone
I'm talking to myself
It's not a blessing nor a prize
But it's a lesson in disguise
'Cause it's never crossed my mind to take my life or anything
And I've learned to just embrace what this place is gonna throw at me now
It's all for you- everything I do
I think about your face all the time
You've reserved your place in the back of my mind
But until I figure out these crazy thoughts of mine
I'll keep you tucked away; out of sight and out of mind
Just know I'm trying
But I beat myself up
I know I messed up from words I said to you
I'd never pick a fight
I'd say you're always right, if only I knew
But the past is in the past, so if you're listening out there
Just know I always have, and always will care
When my heart was paralyzed, I had to learn to compromise
But it's never crossed my mind to take my life or anything
And I've learned to just embrace what this place is gonna throw at me now
It's all for you- everything I do
I think about your face all the time
You've reserved your place in the back of my mind
But until I figure out these crazy thoughts of mine
I'll keep you tucked away; out of sight and out of mind
So much guilt. So much self-animosity
I struggle every day when I pray to things that I can't see
But can your hear me when I say you'll always be a part of me?
It's all for you, everything I do
I think about your face all the time
You've reserved your place in the back of my mind
But until I figure out these crazy thoughts of mine
I'll keep you tucked away; out of sight and out of mind
I struggle every day when I pray to things that I can't see
But can your hear me when I say you'll always be a part of me?