I didn't mean to scare you How'd you know I could never live without you Strip away the irony Sincerely hopeless now Why don't you hurt like I do If pain is all the same I wanted to be happy But I'm changing my ways Everything's absurd Nothing feels the same Reality behind the curtain Never went away I'm certain I used to cry, now I'm standing still Don't wanna hate myself this much I can't even feel your touch You still wonder why I don't feel real Laying here between your arms I could never feel harm Tears like stone, forever Do I ever pull at the tether I'll take my time You would even care Making up the same lie I could never bear the Pain like you do Is loving me strange I wanted to be happy Something got in the way And now I'm shaky and I'm bored I guess I wanted more Reality behind the curtain Never went away I'm certain I'll never open my blinds anymore I'm standing still, I'm standing still I don't talk to my friends, not a word I'm standing still I'm standing still When I am this afraid I used to wonder why I don't feel real Don't wanna hate myself this much I can't even feel your touch You still wonder why I don't feel real Don't wanna hate myself this much I can't even feel your touch You still wonder why I don't feel real