You think it's funny huh the fact that I'm growing The fact that my feelings are showing The fact that my conscious is finally flowing I'm starting to think that you think it's funny don't you All the comparisons to all these rappers who don't got the larynx I do I give it my everything Devil been tempting me Pick up the hatchet it's fine A little bit of blood will make you feel better just try That's what my shoulder says Who do I listen to don't know what his motive is I hope nobody notices that I'm getting too old for this Now my morals are starting to fade into blacks They won't be laughing when I get to snapping and I get to waving this axe Think I be tripping the blood gone be dripping from sticking the blades in they backs Hearing the thunder above the clouds roll over the scene The fan's going to cry when they see Fall from my veins blood is in the rain is this just a game to you Call my name all's about to change nothing is the same to you I think it's funny though you all want a dummy flow You all want me rapping about drugs and guns and watch how much money I blow No one's respecting the rhyme or the scheme or the bars or the concept I wrote Maybe it's the end of my rope should I put my head through the hole And step off the chair and struggle to breathe Is that what you're wanting to see I don't know what you're wanting from me I'm just wanting to be The music is keeping the kid in me free give a damn if I'm signed or wealthy I do this so I can have something to reach without it there's nothing to be The confidence gone my cape it would seem it's starting to tear at the seems The bottom is withered the color is faded my attitude jaded I start getting mean I take out my anger on my family and team who've always been there for me The flames of my failure as high as can be was it all just a dream