Yea light it up like a lotus
I got too much love can't control it
And it's getting in the way of my motion
I do not know if I want it or own it
I cannot make my mind at all
Now I'm singing all these songs
I don't know if I am wrong
For thinking you are the one
That's my heart speaking
I lost control of my mind
I'm losing track of the time
I really need to think right
So I smoke gas to comply
To fill myself up with lies
To the people I decide
That they don't care if I die
I keep myself up at night
Insomnia close my eyes
I cannot do that cuz I
Think no ones right by my side
I really hope that I'm wrong
Got a new girl and she giving her all
I'm tryna feel it so I take adderall
Tryna get sober I can't get it off
I just be thinking about money
Going through motions I'm getting my blues yea
I really feel like kid cudi
Going through motions the man on the moon yea
All of these bitches stay slutty
All in my bed and they all in my room yea
I really find it that funny
I do not know what the fuck I can do yea
It is a losing battle I cannot
I put my hoodie up feel like snot
I'm putting the bottle up take my shot
Making sure nobody taking my spot
There is no other giraa
Look at myself talking bout the mirror
Look at my eyes and it's full of terror
Starting to think that this shit is not fair
Nobody cares at all
Gotta go right my wrongs even though I fall
Nobody cares at all
Tryna go better myself and they know that I ball
Nobody cares at all
Stand on my money like shaq I feel like I'm tall
Nobody cares at all
Nobody has my back so I better call saul
Yea light it up like a lotus
I got too much love can't control it
And it's getting in the way of my motion
I do not know if I want it or own it
I cannot make my mind at all
Now I'm singing all these songs
I don't know if I am wrong
For thinking you are the one
That's my heart speaking
I lost control of my mind
I'm losing track of the time
I really need to think right
So I smoke gas to comply
To fill myself up with lies
To the people I decide
That they don't care if I die