I wake up, put a bullet in my brain
Because nobody in the world realize my fucking pain
Never talk about this shit
Thought they all think I am insane
Nothing rational
Only thing Im feeling is so vain
I dont wake up, I just want to go to sleep again
You say you understand my pain, than try to fucking feel it than
It does not matter what I do
The feelings they come back like this
Im working on my fucking self
Because I dont want to die like this
Cut my fucking wrist and it all goes down the drain
But I'm stronger than my fucking thoughts I try to ascertain
May God strike me for my sins, because I got the mark of cain
The feeling comes in the dark, like a fucking coup de main
Ye nevermind now I feel like I am god
Focus on my true self that can not be stopped
Look you in the face, what you see is a fascade
I'm tired of pretending to be someone that I am not
When I woke up in the morning I just wanted to die
Now I looked in the mirror feeling so fucking high
What the fuck is going on?
I am not even myself, shit I feel so fucking gone
I wake up, put a bullet in my brain
Because nobody in the world realize my fucking pain
Never talk about this shit
Thought they all think I am insane
Nothing rational
Only thing I'm feeling is so vain
I don't wake up, I just want to go to sleep again
You say you understand my pain, than try to fucking feel it than
It does not matter what I do
The feelings they come back like this
I'm working on my fucking self
Because I dont want to die like this